Wednesday, January 18, 2017

How Primal Trauma Resurfaces Throughout Our Lives


So I've been thinking that I believe

human beings on harbor kind of primal

trauma

I think the moment of birth is the first

initial the initiation the agony of

separation the first time in which we

experienced fragmentation from being in

a kind of cosmic merger with the divine

being with a goddess with our mother to

all of a sudden trembling naked before

the cosmos and I think that primal

trauma I think that initial separation

leaves us all with the intermittent PTSD

I think that we carry the scars from

birth and that these fears these traumas

resurfaced at pivotal periods of our

lives i think a lot of the patterns in

our romantic life in particular reflect

abandonment






Before that primal trauma until what's

really interesting is that we spend our

lives perpetually reenacting these

traumatic experiences without ever

realizing where they stem from in order

to address them potentially feel them

it's why we make such a failure of our

romantic undertakings and why most

equally lives and quiet desperation i

think the fear of

loneliness I think the cosmic fear of

abandonment is polluting our romantic

lives in ways that we don't often

address and so the question becomes that

is there a solution is there a kind of

journey of transformation our own

version of the Eat Pray Love undertaking

where we learn to become whole on our

own so that meeting somebody else

becomes an additive a supplement rather

than a feeling of a vacuum so to speak

and it's a journey I haven't quite

figured out you know meandering walks on

the beach and contemplative

introspection is just one way of trying

to find an answer to the question that

drives us and I haven't figured it out